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How to be yaya-less and not be totally helpless

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It was the busiest month of the year. It was  the time when i get the most number of bookings for hosting gigs. It was a merry and exciting time. It was also at this time when my yaya of three years told us she is going home to spend the holidays with her family. My initial reaction was, “uh-oh”, not this time. Any other time, but now. But then somehow, there was this soothing voice who told me, “Dont worry, everything’s going to be alright”. My ever-reliable mother’s instinct told me to trust that voice. And the reassuring thing was, the voice sounded a lot like my own mother’s voice. I knew right away that things will work out just fine:)

I happily told yaya she can go home and take the time that she needed to enjoy her vacation. It was a sincere wish. No hard feelings and a reproachful, “How can you leave me at a time like this?”. Nope, weird as it may have sounded, i was secretly glad she was going. It would be an intimate time for me and my family.

And a time of  teamwork and learnings on patience, humility and simple joys, we would later on discover.

That first morning after she left, i woke up with this realization: What do i need to be scared of? I grew up being taught how to do household chores. I was no primadonna. I have no qualms getting sweaty and having calloused hands. I was able to take care of my daughter for four straight years without a nursemaid, while doing the household chores myself, and doing a couple of freelance work in between. This is doable. Even if there are now two children, instead of one, more clothes to wash, healthier appetites to feed a bigger space to clean, more stuff and clutter to organize and squeezing in some work that actually pays. By God’s grace, this is doable.

After i have resolved that, my second thought was: Good thing i was able to train my daughter to help with the chores as early as kindergarten. Being raised by a certified home maker myself, i was not going to be a Mom to children who depend on the house help for a simple task like getting a glass of water.

So there. We are going to have the best of the busiest season of the year. First agenda on our list was to tackle the laundry. And boy, what a marvelous time all three of us had. If you find this hard to believe, these photos will tell you so.

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But of course, for small, bright and active minds, no chore should be done without a bit of fun. So, in between the rinsing and spinning, we have managed to transform our backyard into a mini resort. I never knew doing laundry could be this much and wet 🙂

And if you would think the little one did not do his share of the chore, that’s where you are wrong. He took hold of the hose and proceeded to clean the laundry area for as long as he wanted. He did a pretty good job at it too. I happened to note that when our water bill arrived  a month after 🙂

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Next on our list was to prepare our meals. Now, this is mighty easy for my active kids who love playing chef and customer with their kitchen toys. I am also grateful to have a daughter who is always excited to lend me a helping hand in the kitchen. There was never a time when i had to drag her into learning how to cook. She was always right  beside me even before i ask her.2013-12-20 17.55.49 2013-12-20 17.55.59

This daughter of mine has come a long way from our scrambled egg  and pancake days back when she was in preschool. At ten, she is now able to prepare pasta sauce, slice and saute vegetables, mix ,wrap  and fry shanghai rolls and cook the rice.   Still she dislikes slicing onions 🙂

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Not to be outdone, our other sous chef has his own share of cooking abilities too.

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Well, this one’s really more for photo purposes. Still he demanded that i let him hold the ladle as he sautes our vegetable tofu dish for dinner.

But guess who chopped the nuts for our fruit salad last Christmas Eve dinner? 🙂 It was a task not to be taken lightly for my little boy faced it with ardent focus. I tell you, the nuts were transformed into polvoron 🙂

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To tell you the truth, it was the best fruit salad we ever had, with my two kitchen helpers pinching in and leaving me with almost nothing to do at all 🙂

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When there is a lot of food, there will always be lots of dirty dishes. But this was not a problem for my “mini me” who loves getting her hands wet . Honestly, she would scrub the dishes to a spotless state that could  even outdo Martha Stewart 🙂

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As for trying times like this, one would always need some cheering up. That’s where our little comedian comes in:)

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At last our laundry has dried, folded and organized . Next step is to iron the ones that needed to be ironed. I was ready to do this alone, but no, my kind and industrious daughter will not let me. She asked if she could do it. What can i say?

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And if you would look closely at this photo, you would see a sad face at the back. He was not happy that he was not given a chance  at the ironing board. But “Baby boy”, i said, ” This chore is still to heavy for you”. 🙂 But don’t you worry my darling someday, but not too soon, you’ll get to have the heaviest chore of all. Washing Mommy’s car 🙂

This was our life for over a month. It was very challenging. But i can truthfully say, it was one of the best times we shared as a family.  It was a time when we learned to rely on each other, to be sensitive of each other’s needs, to be a team. It became an opportunity for me to teach my children a valuable lesson in life: That no one should grow up not learning and being to do a single household chore.

So you see, it can be done. I almost told our helper not to come back. But my ever soft-hearted husband talked me out of it. He didn’t want to be the cause of one’s unemployment.  Still, with a helper now in the house once again, we have managed to stick to our routine and  the lifestyle we have acquired during our more than thirty days of being yaya-less.

And i’m proud to say that this family knows how to stick together  and will never be helpless through a mountain of laundry and piles of dirty dishes. 🙂

A Refreshing Change in Education

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In just a few days, our daughter will be starting her first year in Grade school. While she is excited, as she always is whenever school is concerned, I am confronted with separation anxiety attacks. Each time i pass by her old school where she spent amazingly wonderful four years of pre-school, i feel like crying. I miss her pre-school years. I miss the reassuring familiarity of the school, the warm friendliness of the teachers and staff, the strong school and home partnership and the bubbly chatter and contagious laughter of the children.

But I am thankful that our daughter will not really be so far away from the fun, learning environment that she had. I thank the Lord for Progressive schools and i will always be a staunch advocate of it. It is a blessing to have options now unlike before where only traditional schools were the norm. Well, they are still the norm, but i am happy to observe that more parents are being open to the benefits and advantages of progressive education. I have seen how our daughter flourished in this educational environment with her creativity, cognitive and social skills being developed year after year. She has always been a remarkable child and the choice to enroll her in a progressive school sustained and improved that even more.

When my husband and i attended the parent orientation of her new school, i was asked by the school directress of what i remember most during my grade school years. I immediately said, that it would have to be the social activities. Frankly, these are the ONLY things that i remember. I dont recall being excited going to school beause i wanted to learn a new lesson or because i cant wait to see and talk to my teacher. But i do recall the field trips, sports fests, christmas parties and other learning activities that are associated with interaction. This precisely is what i love most about progressive education. It makes learning so much fun like it should be. And  schools should never kill the enjoyment of learning by putting pressure on the students. They should instead cultivate it and encourage it further. I hate to see our daughter’s creativity killed because of too much memorization, worksheets, daily homeworks and weekly quizzes. Tests, i believe are a way to gauge the mastery skills of the student and should not be a basis to compare one student to another. As for competitiveness, our daughter has never backed down from any competition. She’s always ready to try new things with so much enthusiasn.  Her school further bolstered the confidence that we have always instilled in her at home.  This is why when i first learned about progressive education, i convinced my husband right away and enrolled her in a blink of an eye. I couldnt be happier with our very informed decision.

To this day, our daughter has been able to think critically out of the box. There are days when i am just blown away by her candidness and confidence. She is very analytical and doesnt stop with one single answer for every question asked. She is amazingly creative for her age, has exceptional communication skills and she  can hold her own within an adult setting. She’s not afraid to speak her mind, very far from it. But she’s never disrepectful and is conscious of other people’s  private space. She remembers all her teachers from Junior class to Prep. She even drew all of them as she fondly remembers them. With a small class size, the teachers know each child by heart and recognizes the strengths and limitations of every student. I couldnt quite picture how traditional school teachers cope with a class of 40 students and i wonder if they ever really knew who is who among these numerous faces. I would hate to have my daugtrer associated with a number or letter grade that supposedly determines her standing in class.  Each child deserves to be known for who she really is and what she can do. I believe each child is unique and that there should be a different approach for every one of them.  My daughter’s report card has always included a QUALITATIVE assessment of her progress for each semester.Cognitve, Social and Physical. More than the numbers, these are what really matters to me because i get a clear picture of who my daughter is at school.  I am grateful for  the time that the teachers have invested into really  knowing her inside and out. It really aided us parents into enriching her growing years even more.

My daughter has a very strong bond with her classmates and the rest of the school population as well. But she doesnt fold up when immersed in a huge crowd  and instead she shines even more. That’s our social butterfly for you. I cant wait to see her blossom even more in grade school. And being in a progressive school environment once again, i have no doubt that she will breeze through grade school in flying colors.

If there is one childhood regret i have, it’s not having the chance to have a progressive education. I honestly think i would have been a much better individual if i have been given the freedom to speak my mind and explore my creativity during my early years in school. But learning is a lifelong experience. I am constantly learning every day and with my daughter being in a progressive school is just like being a student there myself. And so with this last line, i resolve to face the fact that my daughter will now be in first grade, stop the sentimental tears and  look forward to  seeing my daughter eagerly get ready for school, join her in school activities, bond over arts and crafts and to just enjoy this chapter called school life 🙂

My number 1 fan:)

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My number 1 fan

“Buti na lang ikaw ang binigay na Mommy ni God sa kin”, says my nine year old daughter as I tucked her into bed early this evening. I asked her why and she candidly replied with a tighter hug, “Because you’re the best Mom in the world”.

For  a minute I was grateful that I have already turned off the lamp as my eyes were quickly filled with tears. I knew in my heart that I did not deserve such admiration as I am not perfect and that a day does not end without parenting shortcomings from my end.

But to have this little soul believe in her heart that I am the best, humbles me to the core. To have her gentle hands wrapped around me in a warm embrace despite my many faults, fills me with much gratefulness of being chosen to be hers. Suddenly I was reminded of the letter she gave me on Mother’s Day. Her teacher at Kids’ church told me she proudly read it to the whole class. In her spontaneous card she told me to follow my heart and my dreams. Even in her tiny little world where everything should still just be about her, she is thinking of me and how she hopes that I will be happy. I may not be the best at everything by my standards, but it doesn’t matter. To one person, I am the best at what I do best. Nothing will ever compare to the joy and fulfillment of having the best job in the world.

She’s on cloud 9 :)

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Tomorrow our first-born, our dear precious daughter will turn nine. She is very excited, even waiting for it the day she turned eight. Once again, she has chosen to celebrate it simply by sharing her favorite things with her classmates through an intimate celebration in school. I wish i could be as excited as her. I am just thankful that preparing for her small party has kept me pre-occupied and took my mind away from getting sentimental as i remember our early years with her.

The phrase “Time flies by so fast” might be overused, but it strikes very close to home. How come it is so true? Our angel whom i carried in my womb for nine months is now nine years old. Where did the seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months and years go? I am grateful for the time we took to take every photo, shoot every video, write every milestone and document each priceless memory, because these are the things that would remind us of how blessed the past nine years were.  Alex, our darling daughter calls these compilation, her “memories”. She loves looking at her photo albums and watching our home movies. Most of the time, in the middle of  a video that we are watching, she would snuggle close to me and hug me ever so tightly.  I thank the Lord for blessing us with a very loving child.

So dear Alex, allow Mommy to share my top 9 most precious memories with you. My list would be endless, but for this one blog i will try my very best to just name a few as i celebrate the past wonderful nine years with you:

1.  January 21, 2004: In the Recovery room – “Nakita mo yung baby girl Demaisip sa nursery?” “Yung may dimples, ang ganda ano”. I started to stir as i gain consciousness. I couldn’t help but smile despite the lingering pain. The nurse noticed me and asked. Kayo po yung Mommy ni Baby Girl Demaisip? I smiled weakly and proudly said “YES”. Then the other nurse said, “Siya po ang pinakamagandang baby sa nursery”. That one comment alone could remove all the pains and hurts of childbirth than any anesthesia could.

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2. February 14, 2004: Valentines Day – Your Daddy planned for a dinner date because he said i need to have a break from my round the clock breastfeeding sessions with you. He asked you Lola Belle to baby sit with your Yaya Vivian. I looked forward to a break but had to spend an hour saying goodbye to you. Your Daddy took me to a cozy little restaurant in the city of Manila, a really intimate place to celebrate hearts day with the love of your life, but midway through dinner, i just started to cry and begged him to take me home. I missed you very much already.

3. March 28, 2004: Your Baptism – It was a grand celebration with all our families and closest friends. Everyone came and they couldn’t stop commenting how super-duper cute you were with your lace white dress with trimmings of pastel-colored flowers and matching headband. It was a very solemn ceremony but halfway through the blessing, there was suddenly a grunting sound, coming from you and it was in fact your way of letting us know that you need to go and do a “number 2″. At 2 months, you were already hilarious baby:)

3. January 19, 2005: Jollibee Philcoa – Your first birthday party baby!!!! You were dressed in a  blue chinese chong sam dress( which i got for you during my trip to China for a news coverage) and Daddy and i also wore blue. We got there early and you were in such a party mood that you just kept moving around the floor doing your signature dance steps. Then your guests started to arrive, and we played fun games and finally it was time for the main event, Jollibee is going to do a dance number. There is just thing we needed to do, we had to wake you up but we decided not too because you looked so cute sleeping through your party:) (You never did like mascots when you were a little baby. Couldn’t really blame you coz they look so huge:) )

4.  Active Fun-:Fun Ranch, Libis, Quezon City- We were there for the soft opening and boy! Did we have a mighty fun time! I think we monopolized the pool of balls area but we had such a blast baby. I really wish we could do that again.

5. ABC 5 studios – I will never forget the evenings when you will peek through the glass doors of the newsroom in your pajamas with your Daddy following closely behind. You always accompanied him when he came to fetch me and i have always looked forward to those times too. It was during those days when i was already secretly thinking of leaving my broadcasting career to be with you 24 by 7 baby.

6. Trinoma Mall: Strawberry Shortcake show – Again, we were at the first day of Trinoma’s opening. I remember we were waiting behind the entrance doors a couple of minutes before the mall officially opens for the day. These were the days when i am finally and offically a full-time Mom and housewife. Oh how i miss those days. It was the most fulfilling, humbling and life-changing part of my life. Do you remember how you jumped for joy and excitement as Strawberry Shortcake and her friends started coming out on stage? You were screaming in delight and dancing with them as well. Afterwards it was a day of shopping and bonding for us.  Just the two of us. Perfect. Just Absolutely Perfect.

7. Creative Explorers School for Children: June 2007 – Your first day in school baby. I had a hard time. It was a roller coaster of emotions for me. Between shopping excitedly for school things and crying, i was the one who had separation anxiety that day. As i struggled to control my emotions on that morning that we took you on your very first day in school, you bounded confidently through the steps , ready to start your first taste of freedom. But i was not ready to let you go so easily. I refused to go home and waited fr dismissal time with all the yayas at the waiting area for two and a half hours. I styed right there at the waiting area for two weeks until you told me that it is okay for me to go home because you will be alright. Imagine that! But I was not bored at all. It was therapy for me. It was a lot better than going home  and missing you badly.

8. Girl Bonding Time: Cafe Mary Grace, Blushing Cupcakes,Excelsior Organic Spa, David’s Salon, Trinoma’s Kids Fitting Room, Fully Booked, Book Sale, Cinemas everywhere, Starbucks,Time Zone – I dont remember having this much intimate and animated bonding time with a girlfriend and i am glad i waited to spend it with my ultimate BFF- YOU :) I never knew having a daughter could be this much fun. I have a piece of heaven when i’m with you baby…a large chunk of heaven indeed :)

9. Saturday evenings at HOME: When everyone else is asleep – This is one of the reasons i look forward to weekends. This is when we catch up on things about school and work while watching our favorite shows on TLC. This is when we tell each other ANYTHING, while curled up on the family room sofa and muching on your favorite popcorn. And then we pray together and tell GOD of how thankful we are for choosing you to be our daughter and me to be your Mom.

Thank you dear ALEX for the past nine years. Having you changed my life and i wouldn’t ever dream of having any other kind of life. You fill our lives with so much happiness, love, creativity, laughter and HOPE. I love you so much. Happy Birthday Darling:)

 

 

She’s 10, and i’m happy-sad :) :(

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To say “How time flies” is an understatement to how i feel. It wouldn’t even begin to describe the roller coaster of emotions that are going on inside my heart. I know i should be celebrating with you. I tried and i’m still trying to put up a cheerful smile. After all, you have been waiting for this day since you turned 9 while i was dreading it. “Double digit” was what you have excitedly called it. “Goodbye my little girl” is how i would call it.

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How could you be ten all of a sudden? I’m not ready. I don’t think i’ll ever be. And for the next birthdays after this, i will still be here, trapped in my sadness, nursing a broken heart and wondering if i’ll ever have another chance to bring back the little girl you once were.

You are my first love.

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And like all first loves, it was you who experienced our growing pains. But you have been an angel through it all. An angel who silently prayed throughout the fights, as your Daddy and I were both struggling to learn how to be Daddy and Mommy. You were an angel who never complained and always knew that God will take care of everything, as He always does.DSC_0704

Oh such great faith for a little soul. Do you know that there are times when i feel that you are more of a blessing to us than we are to you?

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I love you so much Baby. I always tell you that. I mean it. I mean it even more at times when you feel that i don’t. There is not a minute that i don’t. There was a time when i wondered if i would ever have a space for another baby in my heart after you. You were more than enough for me. That’s how much i love you. But God heard your prayers and He granted us a son and a baby brother for you. You were always the one with the big heart. So big for a such a little girl to carry.  The one who always reaches out, forgives,and gives without asking for anything in return.

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Oh how happy we were when we found out we were having a baby boy. Do you remember that day at the hospital when we both squealed with delight while Daddy was in tears and we celebrated with  ice cream after? It was you Darling who made Gab happen for us. You are his angel too.

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Now where was I? Oh, you’re now ten. Finally you have entered the land of the double digit, as you fondly call it.

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Little by little, i see traces of the small girl you once were, fade away.  Your bedroom has started to look different too. Gone are the stuffed animals that used to occupy most of your bed and floor space. The Barbie dolls that we played with are now placed inside a box. I wonder if we will ever play with them again. I sincerely hope so.

But still i am secretly glad that you also seem not that ready yet to say goodbye to the baby you once were. And i am holding on to those few traces while they are still within my reach. Did you notice how i tried to bring back your early years when i bought you those original Hi 5 videos?

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I desperately wanted to give you something that would remind the two of us of those blissful preschool years. I was not sure if you will be excited to have them, as the other items i bought for your 10th birthday were your current favorites. But boy, was i so happy to see the look of nostalgia and happiness in your eyes when you saw them. Our eyes met at that instant and in my heart, i know, you knew what it meant for me to give you those.

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I realized, some things will never change. You are still my sweet baby girl and will always be.

The Logic of a Four Year Old

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I wish i had kept a list of all the amazing and ‘”amusing”things our alex has said eversince she discovered that talking and reasoning are one of her best qualities:). I’m sure i would have been able to write a lot, compiled it and even made it into a book. But since i have been preoccupied with too much”mommy”stuff, i simply stored these precious gems in my memory and heart and promised myself that one quiet day, i would have them in black and white.

And now that i have one of those rare times to just sit back, relax and digest my thoughts..i’ll try to remember every funny and “logical”thing our alex has come up with.

:)Eversince i left my career as a news reporter, i have been spending my days and nights at the beck and call of our one and only daughter. One night, after an exhaustingly happy schoolday,i was ready to finally lie on bed and read a newly acquired book when alex”asked”me to get one of her toys which she left downstairs. This is no big deal if you have not been going up and down the stairs at least 50 times in a day and so i said, “Baby naman, kaka-akyat ko lang eh, mommy’s tired na”.

After 2 days, as we were getting ready to leave for an event, i asked alex who just came down from upstairs to please get my cellphone which i left in our bedroom. I didnt have the nerve to get mad at her innocent response and im sure you would understand why. “mommy kaka-baba ko lang eh, im tired na..kaw na”.

🙂 Since Alex turned 4, she has been sleeping a lot in her own room. But mommy has to stay beside her, read her a story and wait for her to go to sleep. Some months ago, alex had this “fear”of sleeping. “Mommy”, morning na ba? she asked me. I said, no, the light you see comes from the moon. She answered, ang tagal naman mag-morning. I asked her, why do you want it to be morning na? she said, i dont want to sleep because ayoko mag-dream. Kasi di ako sure if nice or bad ang dream ko”.

🙂 I know that as parents, our children think the world of us. Its a very good feeling especially at times when you are able to answer all of your kid’s questions and she looks at you with awe and your heart just melts with love. But how do you feel when your child asks you a question that no matter how much schooling you have had, you just dont know how to answer it. “Mommy, bakit ako…ako?”

:)For almost a year now, our alex has been telling us that she wants a baby brother AND a sister. Her prayer before meals, bedtime and even circle time in kids church..is always , always to have a baby brother AND a sister. But she has started to grow impatient that’s why i told her that if she just keeps on praying, God will hear her and grant her wish. Then one day while watching “Baby’s Day-out”,one of her favorite movies..she angrily asked why her baby wish is taking too long”. “Mommy bakit ang tagal naman ng baby..siguro youre not praying, ako lang nagpa-pray eh”.

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:)I have been having a huge appetite lately ( i do wish its for the same reason as you think..but it could also be because of that time of the month). While Alex and i were eating lunch..she commented on my healthy appetite. “Mommy ang laki na ng tyan mo..i think you have a baby na..sige Mommy, eat ka pa, para laki pa tyan mo,para there will be a baby inside na”.

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Since Alex’s baby wish is taking too long ( according to her) she has come up with a “logical” explanation why. “Mommy i think nailigaw si Jesus kaya di pa nya nalagay sa tummy mo yung baby. Di nya alam yung world noh? Naligaw sya, di nya kasi alam yung Carmel” ( Carmel is the name of our village:) )

:)Alex has 3 large boxes of VCDs and DVDs. Her collection includes MR Bean movies and cartoons, Disney movies..Sound of Music..Annie..Narnia…..and yes!..our wedding video. I dont know if she’s the only 4 year old who watches the entire 3 disc wedding video of her parents ( and she watches it intently too)..but im really touched by this. Anyway..eversince she has started watching it at 3 years old, she has been asking us accusingly why she is not there. She says everyone she knows is there and why was she left at home. “Mommy ang daya nyo,bakit nyo ko iniwan? I want you to get married again, para maging flower girl ako”. Sweet noh?

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🙂 Now at 4 years old..alex understands why she was not present at her own parents’ wedding. One evening, when her daddy came home, alex was again watching our wedding video. Her daddy asked her. “Baby girl, san ka dyan? Alex answered. “Wala ako ydan eh”. Her Daddy asked again. “Bäkit wala ka dyan?” Alex answered, “Kasi nasa heaven pa ko, I was still an angel”. Her ever makulit na daddy asks her again,”Eh pano ka napunta sa tummy ni mommy?”Alex answered, “Jesus put me there kasi nag-pray kayo eh”

🙂 June was a busy month for me and so Alex stayed at her lolo Buddy and lola Belle’s house in Sanville a lot while i hosted weddings and corporate events. When Alex is there, she’s the boss..well at least that’s what she thinks :). One day she was reprimanded by her Lolo because of too much TV. Her Lolo said her eyes will get ruined if she will watch too much tv. Alex asked her lolo why, which was answered with, because the “glare”of the TV is not good for the eyes. Alex went silent for a minute, went inside her tita evette’s bedroom, and came back with dark sunglasses. She said,”Lolo look, di na ma-ruin eyes ko, i can watch TV na”.

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Like i said..Alex thinks she’s the boss in sanville and so no one can watch TV in the upstairs living room when she’s there, because she has claimed that space..”her space”already. A couple of months ago, her lolo buddy was confined at home because of a back injury. Since lolo Buddy cant walk much, he stays in the upstairs living room most of the time and watches TV. One day, when alex arrived at Sanville, she saw “her space” already occupied by her lolo. She went up, kissed her lolo, sat down beside him and watched CNN with him. After 15 minutes or so..she told her lolo…”Lolo, rest ka na. Ganda ng bed mo dun sa room.., sleep ka na”.

These are just “some” of Alex’s anecdotes as far as my memory can come up with right now.. and so i am leaving this one open-ended. Im sure i will be returning to this the next time i had this “rare”moment to write my thoughts again.

I had so much fun writing this and im glad i did. In her own little, “logical” way, Alex teaches me a lot about life and how to see and enjoy things just like a child 🙂

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Goodbye Preschool

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As i sit to ponder

I began to wonder…

Where have all the years gone by?

I couldn’t help but ask why….

For i fear I would start to cry

To say goodbye to a chapter in our little girl’s life.

She has grown so fast

I wish each moment with her will last

But i know deep in my heart

That fly…she must.

A whole new world awaits

With new adventures to seek

To our little explorer..who has always been full of cheer

The future will surely bring no fear.

And as we help you spread your wings

This promise i will keep…

That together with God and His angels

We will always be there for you

Because we love you so.

To our darling Alex…

We are Mighty Proud of You.

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Note: Written for our amazing daughter on February 19,2011, Saturday at four o’clock in the afternoon. A mother’s sentimental poem as her daughter says goodbye to pre-school 🙂

Best title in the world

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Had the most refreshing, relaxing and insightful conversation in a long time. It all happened  at eight in the evening, while comfortably lounging on a cushion-filled couch in a room softly illuminated with two night lamps. The topic: boys, girlfriends, peer pressure and secrets. My date: My seven year old daughter. Oh we had so much fun, with giggles, rants, raves and all. It was one of the best times of my life. I knew it right away and decided to write it down so i can remember it forever and get back to it when she feels too big to spend her evenings with me.

I could’nt remember being as candid to my own mom when i was her age. I wish i did. It would have saved me a lot of heartaches and poor decisions.

I also wished i had captured that precious one hour on video. To be able to keep her small voice and girly laughter forever is one piece of gem i would never trade for anything in the world. But to do so would destroy the moment and the spontaenity of it. So i regretfully settled to memorizing each word and facial expression and keeping them safely locked in a corner of my heart. To be a constant reminder that i have been blessed to be called “Mom” of this amazing creation.

What a joy it is to be trusted and confided with matters that are important to her fragile heart. “Don’t tell Daddy” is always added after each revelation. A strict reminder with a hint of a mischievious smile, and a twinkle in her eyes, as if the two of us are now members of an exclusive club where no boys are allowed.  This gave me a special status, a higher rank from her unsuspecting Daddy. How i love the privilege it brings!

How do i freeze time and stop the years from passing? I would do everything all over again, endure the birth pains, body aches, sleepless nights, tightening of  belts to make ends meet, putting careers on hold and laying my life on the line. All these i would do again without batting an eyelash, for a chance to keep my babies as babies forever.

How did everything happened so fast? I look at my precious angel and i see a gorgeous butterfly raring to fly and see the world. How did we ever manage to raise such a smart, sweet, funny and loving child? By God’s grace no doubt.

We could have gone well past midnight just talking for hours if not for the other angel stirring from his slumber and expectantly waiting for Mommy to cuddle him back to sleep. But no, he refuses to go back to dreamland after seeing Mommy. All he wants to do is to play, wrestle and tickle. And that was what we did while i hilariously read to them the story of the “Frog Prince”. I dont think they understood the story except for the “ribet-ribet” sound effects that i had to do to make it sound real.

My son. Our son. A miracle. We waited a long time for his arrival, but God’s timing is always perfect. He came at the most blessed time of our lives.  He has a special voice and look that he only saves for “Mimi”. I would give anything for him to call me “Mimi” even after he is grown and starts driving his own car. I think i am his first love. Sorry girls, already beat you to that.

What a delight to come home to his infectious energy. Always jumping in excitement as he opens the door to welcome us back after a day at work and in school. Always eager to share his escapades for the day in a unique language that only “Mimi” can understand. Tough as a man and brave as a lion, but always has a soft spot for “Mimi”.

So if you ask me if there is anything else i would want to be, i’d say i am already “it”. Won the best title in the world. Not once, but twice.