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How to be yaya-less and not be totally helpless

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It was the busiest month of the year. It was  the time when i get the most number of bookings for hosting gigs. It was a merry and exciting time. It was also at this time when my yaya of three years told us she is going home to spend the holidays with her family. My initial reaction was, “uh-oh”, not this time. Any other time, but now. But then somehow, there was this soothing voice who told me, “Dont worry, everything’s going to be alright”. My ever-reliable mother’s instinct told me to trust that voice. And the reassuring thing was, the voice sounded a lot like my own mother’s voice. I knew right away that things will work out just fine:)

I happily told yaya she can go home and take the time that she needed to enjoy her vacation. It was a sincere wish. No hard feelings and a reproachful, “How can you leave me at a time like this?”. Nope, weird as it may have sounded, i was secretly glad she was going. It would be an intimate time for me and my family.

And a time of  teamwork and learnings on patience, humility and simple joys, we would later on discover.

That first morning after she left, i woke up with this realization: What do i need to be scared of? I grew up being taught how to do household chores. I was no primadonna. I have no qualms getting sweaty and having calloused hands. I was able to take care of my daughter for four straight years without a nursemaid, while doing the household chores myself, and doing a couple of freelance work in between. This is doable. Even if there are now two children, instead of one, more clothes to wash, healthier appetites to feed a bigger space to clean, more stuff and clutter to organize and squeezing in some work that actually pays. By God’s grace, this is doable.

After i have resolved that, my second thought was: Good thing i was able to train my daughter to help with the chores as early as kindergarten. Being raised by a certified home maker myself, i was not going to be a Mom to children who depend on the house help for a simple task like getting a glass of water.

So there. We are going to have the best of the busiest season of the year. First agenda on our list was to tackle the laundry. And boy, what a marvelous time all three of us had. If you find this hard to believe, these photos will tell you so.

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But of course, for small, bright and active minds, no chore should be done without a bit of fun. So, in between the rinsing and spinning, we have managed to transform our backyard into a mini resort. I never knew doing laundry could be this much and wet 🙂

And if you would think the little one did not do his share of the chore, that’s where you are wrong. He took hold of the hose and proceeded to clean the laundry area for as long as he wanted. He did a pretty good job at it too. I happened to note that when our water bill arrived  a month after 🙂

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Next on our list was to prepare our meals. Now, this is mighty easy for my active kids who love playing chef and customer with their kitchen toys. I am also grateful to have a daughter who is always excited to lend me a helping hand in the kitchen. There was never a time when i had to drag her into learning how to cook. She was always right  beside me even before i ask her.2013-12-20 17.55.49 2013-12-20 17.55.59

This daughter of mine has come a long way from our scrambled egg  and pancake days back when she was in preschool. At ten, she is now able to prepare pasta sauce, slice and saute vegetables, mix ,wrap  and fry shanghai rolls and cook the rice.   Still she dislikes slicing onions 🙂

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Not to be outdone, our other sous chef has his own share of cooking abilities too.

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Well, this one’s really more for photo purposes. Still he demanded that i let him hold the ladle as he sautes our vegetable tofu dish for dinner.

But guess who chopped the nuts for our fruit salad last Christmas Eve dinner? 🙂 It was a task not to be taken lightly for my little boy faced it with ardent focus. I tell you, the nuts were transformed into polvoron 🙂

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To tell you the truth, it was the best fruit salad we ever had, with my two kitchen helpers pinching in and leaving me with almost nothing to do at all 🙂

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When there is a lot of food, there will always be lots of dirty dishes. But this was not a problem for my “mini me” who loves getting her hands wet . Honestly, she would scrub the dishes to a spotless state that could  even outdo Martha Stewart 🙂

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As for trying times like this, one would always need some cheering up. That’s where our little comedian comes in:)

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At last our laundry has dried, folded and organized . Next step is to iron the ones that needed to be ironed. I was ready to do this alone, but no, my kind and industrious daughter will not let me. She asked if she could do it. What can i say?

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And if you would look closely at this photo, you would see a sad face at the back. He was not happy that he was not given a chance  at the ironing board. But “Baby boy”, i said, ” This chore is still to heavy for you”. 🙂 But don’t you worry my darling someday, but not too soon, you’ll get to have the heaviest chore of all. Washing Mommy’s car 🙂

This was our life for over a month. It was very challenging. But i can truthfully say, it was one of the best times we shared as a family.  It was a time when we learned to rely on each other, to be sensitive of each other’s needs, to be a team. It became an opportunity for me to teach my children a valuable lesson in life: That no one should grow up not learning and being to do a single household chore.

So you see, it can be done. I almost told our helper not to come back. But my ever soft-hearted husband talked me out of it. He didn’t want to be the cause of one’s unemployment.  Still, with a helper now in the house once again, we have managed to stick to our routine and  the lifestyle we have acquired during our more than thirty days of being yaya-less.

And i’m proud to say that this family knows how to stick together  and will never be helpless through a mountain of laundry and piles of dirty dishes. 🙂

Spreading his wings

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Mommy, I'm ready!

Today, my son Gab took his pre-school assessment. He is starting school in June. I dressed in rugged clothes to match my little man’s style. I was excited but i knew that i was saving the tears for later. He did so well and i am so proud of him.

I guess he has finally entered a new season in his life. He has started to spread his wings and i have also entered a new season alongside with him. Once again, i have to start to let go.

 

As i watched him take the teacher’s hand and start making his way to the classroom, the past three years with him all came back to me. Was i able to make the most of those years with him? Was i able to let him know that he is a wonderful creation of God and that he is as precious as God’s gift of salvation? Have  i told him often enough and make him feel all the time how much i love him? Was i able to instil in him God’s discipline and the values of love, humility,patience and compassion? Does he know that i will do anything for him?

My baby boy has grown but he is till holding my heart at the palm of his hand. I know this for sure. Because i will never forget his momentary pause and the backward glance he gave me as the teacher led him away. His eyes sought mine and even without words we both knew what each of us wanted to say. “Mommy, is it alright if i go? Please wait for me”. “Yes baby, you’ll be alright. I’ll be here”.

And then i added…more for myself at that moment..”Always”.

The Logic of a Four Year Old

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I wish i had kept a list of all the amazing and ‘”amusing”things our alex has said eversince she discovered that talking and reasoning are one of her best qualities:). I’m sure i would have been able to write a lot, compiled it and even made it into a book. But since i have been preoccupied with too much”mommy”stuff, i simply stored these precious gems in my memory and heart and promised myself that one quiet day, i would have them in black and white.

And now that i have one of those rare times to just sit back, relax and digest my thoughts..i’ll try to remember every funny and “logical”thing our alex has come up with.

:)Eversince i left my career as a news reporter, i have been spending my days and nights at the beck and call of our one and only daughter. One night, after an exhaustingly happy schoolday,i was ready to finally lie on bed and read a newly acquired book when alex”asked”me to get one of her toys which she left downstairs. This is no big deal if you have not been going up and down the stairs at least 50 times in a day and so i said, “Baby naman, kaka-akyat ko lang eh, mommy’s tired na”.

After 2 days, as we were getting ready to leave for an event, i asked alex who just came down from upstairs to please get my cellphone which i left in our bedroom. I didnt have the nerve to get mad at her innocent response and im sure you would understand why. “mommy kaka-baba ko lang eh, im tired na..kaw na”.

🙂 Since Alex turned 4, she has been sleeping a lot in her own room. But mommy has to stay beside her, read her a story and wait for her to go to sleep. Some months ago, alex had this “fear”of sleeping. “Mommy”, morning na ba? she asked me. I said, no, the light you see comes from the moon. She answered, ang tagal naman mag-morning. I asked her, why do you want it to be morning na? she said, i dont want to sleep because ayoko mag-dream. Kasi di ako sure if nice or bad ang dream ko”.

🙂 I know that as parents, our children think the world of us. Its a very good feeling especially at times when you are able to answer all of your kid’s questions and she looks at you with awe and your heart just melts with love. But how do you feel when your child asks you a question that no matter how much schooling you have had, you just dont know how to answer it. “Mommy, bakit ako…ako?”

:)For almost a year now, our alex has been telling us that she wants a baby brother AND a sister. Her prayer before meals, bedtime and even circle time in kids church..is always , always to have a baby brother AND a sister. But she has started to grow impatient that’s why i told her that if she just keeps on praying, God will hear her and grant her wish. Then one day while watching “Baby’s Day-out”,one of her favorite movies..she angrily asked why her baby wish is taking too long”. “Mommy bakit ang tagal naman ng baby..siguro youre not praying, ako lang nagpa-pray eh”.

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:)I have been having a huge appetite lately ( i do wish its for the same reason as you think..but it could also be because of that time of the month). While Alex and i were eating lunch..she commented on my healthy appetite. “Mommy ang laki na ng tyan mo..i think you have a baby na..sige Mommy, eat ka pa, para laki pa tyan mo,para there will be a baby inside na”.

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Since Alex’s baby wish is taking too long ( according to her) she has come up with a “logical” explanation why. “Mommy i think nailigaw si Jesus kaya di pa nya nalagay sa tummy mo yung baby. Di nya alam yung world noh? Naligaw sya, di nya kasi alam yung Carmel” ( Carmel is the name of our village:) )

:)Alex has 3 large boxes of VCDs and DVDs. Her collection includes MR Bean movies and cartoons, Disney movies..Sound of Music..Annie..Narnia…..and yes!..our wedding video. I dont know if she’s the only 4 year old who watches the entire 3 disc wedding video of her parents ( and she watches it intently too)..but im really touched by this. Anyway..eversince she has started watching it at 3 years old, she has been asking us accusingly why she is not there. She says everyone she knows is there and why was she left at home. “Mommy ang daya nyo,bakit nyo ko iniwan? I want you to get married again, para maging flower girl ako”. Sweet noh?

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🙂 Now at 4 years old..alex understands why she was not present at her own parents’ wedding. One evening, when her daddy came home, alex was again watching our wedding video. Her daddy asked her. “Baby girl, san ka dyan? Alex answered. “Wala ako ydan eh”. Her Daddy asked again. “Bäkit wala ka dyan?” Alex answered, “Kasi nasa heaven pa ko, I was still an angel”. Her ever makulit na daddy asks her again,”Eh pano ka napunta sa tummy ni mommy?”Alex answered, “Jesus put me there kasi nag-pray kayo eh”

🙂 June was a busy month for me and so Alex stayed at her lolo Buddy and lola Belle’s house in Sanville a lot while i hosted weddings and corporate events. When Alex is there, she’s the boss..well at least that’s what she thinks :). One day she was reprimanded by her Lolo because of too much TV. Her Lolo said her eyes will get ruined if she will watch too much tv. Alex asked her lolo why, which was answered with, because the “glare”of the TV is not good for the eyes. Alex went silent for a minute, went inside her tita evette’s bedroom, and came back with dark sunglasses. She said,”Lolo look, di na ma-ruin eyes ko, i can watch TV na”.

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Like i said..Alex thinks she’s the boss in sanville and so no one can watch TV in the upstairs living room when she’s there, because she has claimed that space..”her space”already. A couple of months ago, her lolo buddy was confined at home because of a back injury. Since lolo Buddy cant walk much, he stays in the upstairs living room most of the time and watches TV. One day, when alex arrived at Sanville, she saw “her space” already occupied by her lolo. She went up, kissed her lolo, sat down beside him and watched CNN with him. After 15 minutes or so..she told her lolo…”Lolo, rest ka na. Ganda ng bed mo dun sa room.., sleep ka na”.

These are just “some” of Alex’s anecdotes as far as my memory can come up with right now.. and so i am leaving this one open-ended. Im sure i will be returning to this the next time i had this “rare”moment to write my thoughts again.

I had so much fun writing this and im glad i did. In her own little, “logical” way, Alex teaches me a lot about life and how to see and enjoy things just like a child 🙂

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Best title in the world

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Had the most refreshing, relaxing and insightful conversation in a long time. It all happened  at eight in the evening, while comfortably lounging on a cushion-filled couch in a room softly illuminated with two night lamps. The topic: boys, girlfriends, peer pressure and secrets. My date: My seven year old daughter. Oh we had so much fun, with giggles, rants, raves and all. It was one of the best times of my life. I knew it right away and decided to write it down so i can remember it forever and get back to it when she feels too big to spend her evenings with me.

I could’nt remember being as candid to my own mom when i was her age. I wish i did. It would have saved me a lot of heartaches and poor decisions.

I also wished i had captured that precious one hour on video. To be able to keep her small voice and girly laughter forever is one piece of gem i would never trade for anything in the world. But to do so would destroy the moment and the spontaenity of it. So i regretfully settled to memorizing each word and facial expression and keeping them safely locked in a corner of my heart. To be a constant reminder that i have been blessed to be called “Mom” of this amazing creation.

What a joy it is to be trusted and confided with matters that are important to her fragile heart. “Don’t tell Daddy” is always added after each revelation. A strict reminder with a hint of a mischievious smile, and a twinkle in her eyes, as if the two of us are now members of an exclusive club where no boys are allowed.  This gave me a special status, a higher rank from her unsuspecting Daddy. How i love the privilege it brings!

How do i freeze time and stop the years from passing? I would do everything all over again, endure the birth pains, body aches, sleepless nights, tightening of  belts to make ends meet, putting careers on hold and laying my life on the line. All these i would do again without batting an eyelash, for a chance to keep my babies as babies forever.

How did everything happened so fast? I look at my precious angel and i see a gorgeous butterfly raring to fly and see the world. How did we ever manage to raise such a smart, sweet, funny and loving child? By God’s grace no doubt.

We could have gone well past midnight just talking for hours if not for the other angel stirring from his slumber and expectantly waiting for Mommy to cuddle him back to sleep. But no, he refuses to go back to dreamland after seeing Mommy. All he wants to do is to play, wrestle and tickle. And that was what we did while i hilariously read to them the story of the “Frog Prince”. I dont think they understood the story except for the “ribet-ribet” sound effects that i had to do to make it sound real.

My son. Our son. A miracle. We waited a long time for his arrival, but God’s timing is always perfect. He came at the most blessed time of our lives.  He has a special voice and look that he only saves for “Mimi”. I would give anything for him to call me “Mimi” even after he is grown and starts driving his own car. I think i am his first love. Sorry girls, already beat you to that.

What a delight to come home to his infectious energy. Always jumping in excitement as he opens the door to welcome us back after a day at work and in school. Always eager to share his escapades for the day in a unique language that only “Mimi” can understand. Tough as a man and brave as a lion, but always has a soft spot for “Mimi”.

So if you ask me if there is anything else i would want to be, i’d say i am already “it”. Won the best title in the world. Not once, but twice.